God give me the strength to pull thru as i'm living thru the darkess moment in my life nw... know that u're sumwhere out there and will be able to listen tomy pleas..... I'm too tired to continue.... Jz too tired.... Take me if u hv to....

Hola!!!!!!!!!!!!!



hmm what shall i say this tym round? Feeling very depress at the moment.... My mind, my body is gonna shut down any moment from now. I cld not take take the beating any longer. Everything has collaspe and tumble down.... The only way i cld express my feeling is tru writing and that is what i'm doing nw....



I've tried means and ways to change everything ard but tym and again all i get is disappointment. Why is fate is so cruel to me... Why why why why why why why why why why???????????????????? How is i wish that i do not even exist in this world at all so i wun be a pest or hassle anyone...... I'm on my knees nw begging for mercy. I've got to fight for everything even for a little attention... Why does it hv to be this way???????



I'm always the last and i will still be the last cz i'm not important to anyone anymore any longer. I'm just a backbone for someone to lean on or for someone to look for when they are lonely....
I'm out of words nw so i'll jz remain silence for nw..........

Happy 24th Birthday

"Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me....... happy birthday to me"
Well it's the 27 of december once again and i'm older by a year.... Hmmmm time flies very fast without me realizing, i'm still alive tii this date. Well there's nothing special for me this year cz it does not makes any difference does it if we celebrate our birthday or not cz we will still aged.


The year is coming to an end in a few days tym... 2009... it's a rough year for me as too many unhappiness occur this year for me. Lots of dispute happen this year itself for me may it be work, family, friend or personal. It's totally a rough year for me to handle but i do really hope that 2010 will be much better year for me but than i shall not hope too much cz i don't know what's there in store for me next year. The only thing that i can do nw is to pray had that the table will turn around for me..... " God bless me "


hmm it's been two years nw.... . Two years back than was so sweet and the portrait
is still fresh and flashing in my mind.... It's hard to erase and cn nvr be erased.... but time has change ppl circumstances and surroundings change and i've got to accept changes it's hard but thats a reality...... "U will always be on top of everything else"



Well peeps that all for my entry for now. Will be back again..... " Cheers"

No more words are coming from me.... i shall stay and be silence cz that will do everything good. Nw that i've nothing to hang on.... Everything is long gone..... This is how my story has and shall end......

Things change without we realising it and at time when we realise the changes it's either too late or opportunity is not being given.... So what should we do? run? hide? lay low? keep in silence? or jz go with the flow?


I do seriously miss those days.... The laughter we had the silly topics we talk about, and miss everything about u.... Cz now everything is different and has change... I wouldn't wanna hope too much cz i can't bear the pain anymore.... I'm drowning myself in alcohol every single day ever since i came back cz that's all i have nw......


Tired, just too tired.....